Looking back along the path I have traveled to bring me here I must admit one thing remains blurry (well perhaps a lot more than one thing). Where did it all begin? When did I start to want difference in my life? Why did I begin to commit a lot of my time to self improvement and personal growth?
The truth is I don’t know. Here are some thoughts on the matter though, I think there is an inherent goodness in all of us, something that want to come out, something that is calling to us whether we listen or not. Give it any name you want, it is there if you listen, it will still be there if you choose not to. I suppose it was this inner voice (I call it my good self, or the light side), that spurred change within and without. Once acknowledged this echo gains strength, once you are aware of it, it will no longer be ignored, once you begin to foster it, it begins grow and affect every aspect of your life.
Sounds a little heavy, perhaps a little esoteric, well that’s because it is. I used to be fairly skeptical of most things considered “out there”, and I believe a little healthy skepticism is good for the mind, it turns on your thinking. Questioning things is why we are what we are, but questioning and dismissing are two very different things. It is easy to be skeptical of something and dismiss it as unimportant, or of little to no value, this I would consider unhealthy skepticism. This rule applies to your inner voice, it is easy to apply your unhealthy skepticism to all areas of your life, in fact if left unchecked it naturally does so anyway. Before you know it most new and unknown things are being thrown out of your mind as soon as they enter.
Even things that are important are filed away as having little value, I believe this repetitive behavior is what leads some into the ruts that they find themselves in. So how do you break out? Well it is not as simple as that, far from it in fact, it is this inherent difficulty in the task of improving one’s self that makes the journey so rewarding.
The starting point is here. Start listening to your good self more often, add a little ying to that yang, explore how the feminine complements the masculine. Start questioning things and then trying them. Example “I think these sausages make me feel terrible inside, but I can’t be sure so I will continue to eat them”. Find out for yourself! Stop eating the frigging sausages and then make up your mind! Test that inner voice, see what holds true after some experimenting, we are here to grow, to learn not accept things as they are. Just imagine what they could be! It is up to you, no one will help you if you do not help yourself, but once you begin to help yourself the world will begin to open up to you. Step inside and never look back.
“We are all in the gutter, some of us are looking at the stars.” – Oscar Wilde
Look at the stars, think about them, and then reach!
